I very well remember those few days of my life, and terrible is the word that comes to my mind when I think of describing how it all was. And how is a teenager expected to react, in such a state of mental stress and depression? An individual, who is still in the process of growing, developing an identity, and still unaware of the worldly tensions, is all of a sudden, forced to encounter something as horrible as depression.
The exact reason for my mental state was not very clear, but to a great extent, it was due to my peer pressure at school, which is very common for us all, to experience at a certain stage during our school lives.
It was tough to control my emotions, to have hope that it would be alright, and what I am grateful to the almighty for, is that I had a handful of people with me, who stood by me, supported me, and were there, always to make me realize that ‘it’s okay to not be okay sometimes’.
I know what it feels like when you cry and cry for days long, without actually any reason, but just some bit of anxiety and depression popping inside your mind, causing you to be mentally unstable. I did not even realize how to react in a particular situation, and soon developed, an irritable temper, shouting at my family members for no reason.
I am happy that I could still share with my parents and actually, I knew that I was going through phases of depression because in many cases people even don’t realize that they are suffering from such mental health disorders.
I could, however, cope with my problem, and I am immensely satisfied that I came out of it. It was at that time when I realized the true strength of music, that power to heal even your deepest wounds, and I could discover immense solace in listening to music. Even for a few moments, I could at least soothe myself, comfort myself. What satisfied me more, was writing, I could pen down my emotions, if not share them with a friend, I could just write them down and get it all off my chest. Writing actually proved to be the painting of my voice, using which I could convey even the deepest secrets buried deep within my heart, under the sand layers of hesitation and distress. What all I felt, was different, it was something I've never experienced before but was something normal, that all of us need to face at some point of time in our lives, and which is what kept me going, and gave rise to that spark from within me to fight back and rise stronger and wiser.
The biggest lesson I learned during this phase of my life was that there may be some times when life throws at you certain tough challenges and these hurdles shall obstruct your path to a peaceful mental state, but what you need to learn is to be strong, positive and hopeful in all situations, to face all the challenges of life, overcome them and rise stronger. Life goes on and on, none of the natural phenomena shall wait for you, it's a continuous process, and life on Earth shall be as normal as it has always been even without you. So, what's most important is to love yourself, to be your favorite, self-care, and self-affection, that's what glows up your personality and is reflected through your character.
This tricky yet joyous process called life has in store for you a whole lot of experiences and challenges, explorations and failures, ambitions and success. What holds importance is your will to face them all with a positive outlook and passionate attitude, to prove your true worth to your own self...
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